My best friend just told me she loves me. Both of us are female, but that's not why I regected her.

I don't love her that way.

I hate how now she's hurt, and it's my fault. And how it's going to be -awkward- now. I'm not the one who's going to be making it awkward though. I don't think deeply enough about things to make it awkward. But -she'll- ... she'll think that I hate her cause she's gay/bi/whatever, and think that everytime I'm just acting normal, I'm insulting her or hinting her that I don't want to be friends anymore and...

grrr.

fuck this shit.

stop the train, I wanna get off!!!